I’ve come to a conclusion about my use of Facebook. It’s multi-faceted and complex, but at the end of the day I know I need to change my usage habits. A few things I’m doing ‘wrong’ currently: I’m addicted and read it far too often, I post wayyyyy too frequently about almost everything that happens in my life, I have way too many friends on there who I have either never met or haven’t seen/talked to in 10+ years, and every bit of drama in my life ends up stemming down to Facebook. I’ve decided that I am sick of this weird world where we rely on Facebook for almost all of our communication with people. I want people to pick up the phone and call me, and I want to answer the phone and talk to them. I want to hang out with friends in real life and actually have ‘catching up’ to do via conversation, rather than already knowing everything that’s gone on in their lives. I want to go back to having some things private. I don’t want to have the mantra of “if I don’t post it on Facebook, it didn’t happen” anymore. I don’t want to always scroll through Facebook while having any momentary pause in my life (waiting in lines, waiting at red stoplights, etc.) and I don’t want to rely on Facebook for most of my entertainment.
I love social media. I owe a lot to it as well — I’ve gotten many jobs simply because I stayed in touch with people via Facebook. I am actually scared of what happens in a world where I remove myself from such a critical component to friendship & communication. But I know something needs to change, and I’m not sure I have the strength to step down without going cold turkey. But I’ve made some changes. I unfriended 210+ people. I added around 20 people to a ‘close friends’ list, and most of my personal posts are going to go there. I’m going to severely reduce the amount of posting that I do – promotional stuff for work, light pictures, video game stuff. Nothing political, nothing controversial, nothing anyone can deem offensive. Nothing that can possibly start drama. I’m done being an open book. I’m taking back my time & my personal life and locking things down again.
Meanwhile…I’m still blogging which is the exact opposite of the above. But I blog for myself. If people want to read and find it interesting — great! But otherwise, this is a spot that’s cathartic for me. Facebook is NOT.
I had blood tests done last week and for the most part, things look good. However, my Vitamin D is super low! I was actually surprised by this considering how much time I spend outdoors. My friend says that this is super common. I’m supposed to be taking a supplement so that I can get those numbers up. I’m also apparently due for an MMR immunization, so I’m taking care of that on Friday. Otherwise though, I’m happy that everything looks good. My B12 was normal too, which is something that vegans have to watch carefully just to make sure they’re keeping their numbers up. So, yay!
On The Weather:
We have been having some CRAZY weather in San Diego. First of all, it’s been hot as a mutha. 90+ most days, some parts of the county hit temps in the 100’s. But yesterday, with absolutely no warning — a thunderstorm appeared. It only lasted 15 minutes but did minor damage with the high winds and wildness. But the strangest shit ever happened. Apparently the change in barometric pressure caused a wine bottle in my kitchen wine rack to EXPLODE all over my kitchen. Chardonnay everywhere. My dogs enjoyed licking some of it up, but considering it’s a constant battle to avoid having ants all over — I’m pretty sad about the sticky sugary mess all over the place. Anyway, it was a very surreal and weird moment where I’m cleaning up the wine and there is thunder & lightning and palm trees blowing all over and my dogs freaking out about the weather.
Lately I’ve been kind of obsessed with the idea of moving to Austin, TX. I know it’s not a short-term decision, but I keep looking at what my future holds and realizing how scary it is in San Diego. It’s expensive — our mortgage is high and requires both of us making a decent sized income to afford it. I don’t see us ‘moving up’ any time soon. Right now, our house is worth almost $100k more than we paid for it, which means we could buy a house twice the size of the one we have now and put at least a 50% down payment on it. Having a low mortgage (sub-$1000/month) is this magical dream world I’ve never thought possible. And Austin has so many perks for us. It’s horse-country, which is great for me and would be awesome for Rosiehorse. The schools are good, which is great for FutureBaby. It’s hip & trendy, just like the neighborhoods we live in now. We can get a home in a safe suburban neighborhood for a steal, which we can’t here without having an hour commute to my husband’s work. The weather is HOT in the summer, but everyone has A/C and I’ve lived in Minnesota which had hot humid sticky summers. The winters are mild, so that’s not an issue. There is plenty of outdoorsy stuff to do. The live music scene is fantastic for those of us who love music. They have tons of vegan food options. And my parents are planning to retire there in a few years, so we could be close to family again (important especially as my dad’s health declines).
On the flip side, I love San Diego and I’ve finally found a farm for Rosie that I’m truly happy about. I have a couple good friends here. I love the weather and the ocean, even if I don’t appreciate it often enough. Ugh. Decisions.
Is detoxing from caffeine as hard as quitting cigarettes? Because right now, it feels like it. My head is pounding and I want to curl in a ball and never move.
Just over a week remains until I’m going ‘under the laser’ for Lasik surgery. I’m scared and nervous but I am so excited to be able to see without glasses. SO STOKED.---------------
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