I’ve never had a child before, so I know that I really have no idea to expect. After all, no one does. All the advice in the world can mostly be discarded, because ultimately you will do what is best for your baby and your family and situation. I’ve been thinking of having children almost my entire adult life – at least for 10 years or so. I’ve tried to imagine and dream of what it could be like, what kind of mother I’m going to be to my child(ren), and what kind of father my husband will be. At this point, less than 3 months away from meeting my very first baby, I’m finding myself eager and excited for all the moments waiting for me. Here’s what I’m currently excited for:
The instant I transition to being a ‘mom’: I’ve heard plenty about how transformative it is to become a parent, and I’m looking forward to that very second where my baby is born and he’s laying on my chest and looking up at me. I know it will be awhile until he calls me “mom” by name, but just that moment of seeing my creation for the first time is going to be a moment to cherish forever.
Watching my husband hold and interact with baby: I know he’s going to be a fantastic dad, and I can’t wait to see his eyes light up as we laugh together, as he teaches his son new things, as I get to watch as our baby changes HIS life forever in the best possible ways. I’m so excited to have a front row seat to all of that.
Feeling the love for him: I already am so deeply and madly in love with my son and he’s still just a kicking machine inside me. I can’t wait to experience that overwhelming sense of love for him, and the feeling of having someone depend on me who I care about more than anything in the world.
Documenting him: He’s going to grow so fast, and I’m excited to take photos of him, write and share his stories, take note of his growth and milestones, and appreciate every little moment before they pass forever.
Exploring the world with him: I am excited to take my son to visit the world around us, to show him how amazing everything is around him. To teach him new things, to give him new experiences, to let him show ME new experiences. To share in so many “first time moments” with each other, and as a family.
Nurturing him: To hold him when he cries, cuddle him forever, help him understand what feelings are and how to name them, to be there for him when he needs me but also when he doesn’t, to give him all the emotional support I can muster.
Challenging him: I’m eager to give our son the confidence he needs to tackle life’s bumps and bends, to help him learn to guide himself through sticky spots, to show him that the world is hard yet rewarding to those who take it head on. I want him to strive to be the best version of himself that he can be.
Enjoying the smiles and laughs he brings: I don’t take life too seriously, and I’m excited for every day for the silly and adorable antics that he’ll bring to my life. I can’t wait for my husband and I to sit together and watch him play, and smile at nothing other than how wonderful and beautiful he is.
To improve myself: To have a real strong tangible reason to be the best I can be every single day. To be a great example for him, someone he can be proud of. Not just his friend, but his #1 supporter, his role model, his teacher, his partner in life.
There’s a hundred more things I could list, but they all boil down to I just want to be there with him, present in the moment, spending time with him. I might not be the greatest mother in the world, and I might have flaws of my own, but at the end of the day – I just want to be everything I can be for HIM and for my family. I can’t wait to meet him, to see what kind of personality he ends up having, to discover what he loves and hates, and to make every day of his as wonderful as possible. My heart is already bursting with love for him, and in three short months he’ll be here in this big, wide, world and have so much to learn and understand.---------------
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