Holy. Freaking. Shit. You guys, I can’t even explain to you how real this is all starting to feel. We had our 30 week ultrasound on Saturday and he didn’t cooperate. His hands and feet were bunched up in front of his face so we couldn’t see anything. Then, we went back last night at 7:30pm for round two (fueled by a sugary Jamba Juice to get him moving) and we were able to get some pretty precious photos. I know, they’re a little creepy. But these were seriously the 3 best out of 60 photos, because my damn anterior placenta makes getting 4D images difficult. My favorite of these three is definitely the middle one, because he was in the middle of doing the cutest little half-smirk that seriously melted my heart. It’s always weird to do these 3D moving image ultrasounds, because as they adjust the depth the baby can look VERY scary. You can see the bones inside their body instead of their skin, or it will show globs of placenta on the baby (like the middle image above) and all sorts of strange uterus inhabitants show up on the image.
Last night I was in the weirdest state of mind after seeing those images. I mean, I feel him kicking me all day long nowadays. I’ve seen the images online that show me how big he is, and I know he’s cantaloupe sized now and is probably about 3 pounds. But somehow, seeing his actual FACE made it all feel so much more real. All of a sudden it kicked in that we’re having a REAL baby. Luke and I started talking about how he’s never even seen a newborn in person. We watched some YouTube videos of “24 hours with a newborn” and he was like “wow, this looks awful.” I’m sure it won’t be a walk in the park, but when it’s your own baby I imagine it has many upsides.
There’s all sorts of things going on in my life right now, and I’m basically taking it one day at a time. The most exciting thing is that we close on our new house in three days (barring any catastrophies). This weekend consists of painters and spending time in the new place, getting it all spiffed up and ready for our move in. I’m working next Monday while we’ll have carpeting folks putting in new gray carpet in the master bedroom and nursery, but then I’ll have Tuesday through Friday off for more packing and moving. Trying to do all this while I’ll be 31 weeks pregnant with three dogs is going to be one heck of a fun time.
I’m also switching to a new OB on Thursday, one who comes highly recommended. Yes, this is my THIRD OB during this pregnancy. But the doctor I had for the last 3 visits was just so damn rushed all the time. She didn’t make me feel comfortable, she didn’t seem to remember me from visit to visit, and I just always felt stressed out after I left. I decided that I wanted someone who had a calmer presence since I’m already starting to freak the heck out about pushing this boy out. Also, with our move to Poway we wanted to be closer to the hospital we’ll be delivering at – so we’re changing hospitals TOO. Talk about stress. Thankfully, we’ll have our Childbirth Education two-day class at the new hospital in a few weeks and it will come with a hospital tour. It will just be so reassuring to know we’re 5 minutes away from the hospital instead of 20-25. I don’t know how you ladies do it when you have to drive an hour to the hospital!
Speaking of those classes, I’m looking forward to them. I know the jury is mixed on whether or not they’re actually useful vs. reading information online and in books, but I think for my husband it will be super beneficial to have a structured class. He’s feeling a bit unprepared (who isn’t?) and I’m going to need him to be super strong and confident to get me through all this.
I’m feeling good about things right now. I’ve been avoiding reading birth stories online for a few weeks now, trying to not scare myself. I made some positive changes in my friendship circle that were really difficult and painful, but are ultimately for the better. I’m starting to plan my next baby shower which takes place in a month exactly, and I’m only a week away from moving into our new house where I can finally set up our nursery and start buying the bigger items we need for our little man. Finally things are falling into place, and soon everything will be just right for our baby’s arrival. 🙂---------------
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